Nervous...

Okay, I'm going to present my essay and poster in English in like four hours...I'm nervous.
Plus, I had time, so I thought I'd tell y'all.
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Adios!

Supernatural-Sams Death.

This is so sad! I can't believe Sammy dies! I mean, I knew that it happened, but still...I never knew about Dean looking for him for so long first. This is just terrible, I haven't even gotten this far in catching up on other seasons! I'm only like a quarter of the way through watching season 2. I can't believe this, it's so sad! Cassie just sent this to me, thanks! The song fits it so perfectly, it's just so, so sad!
Oh, speaking of Cassie...
We had pretty much a free day in Computer Applications Friday and Cassie was checking out Supernatural.tv
She found Jensen Ackles' Bio and went to his FanSite.
She was just clicking around with me hovering over her shoulder and she found...An email address! If you sent your name and mailing address to that email they'd send you a picture of Jensen! So, of course, I tried it with me and Cassie quietly squealing the whole time. In 4 to 6 weeks we will find out if it worked! And, if it does work, Cassie is going to send them an email too. She wanted to make sure no psycho comes and kills me. heh heh. I just wish that it was a picture of Jensen as Dean, not just Jensen, but whatever. It's still a picture(maybe even 2!), signed I think, and that's pretty cool. So in 4-6 weeks I'll tell you all if it worked!
I hope it does!
Cassie, thanks for sending this to me, it was SO sad! And of course thanks so much for having the same fascination with Supernatural as I do!
God bless!
Love!
TARA

Poem #18 The Sleepy Song

The Sleepy Song

As soon as the fire burns red and low
And the house upstairs is still,
She sings me a queer little sleepy song,
Of sheep that go over the hill.

The good little sheep run quick and soft,
Their colors are gray and white;
They follow their leader nose and tail,
For they must be home by night.

And one slips over, and one comes next,
And one runs after behind;
The gray one's nose at the white one's tail,
The top of the hill they find.

And when they get to the top of the hill
They quietly slip away,
But one runs over and one comes next
Their colors are white and gray.

And over they go, and over they go,
And over the top of the hill
The good little sheep run quick and soft,
And the house upstairs is still.

And one slips over and one comes next,
The good little, gray little sheep!
I watch how the fire burns red and low,
And she says that I fall asleep.

Josephine Daskam Bacon

'The Sleepy Song' by Josephine Daskam Bacon pg 244-245 from 'Best Loved Nursery Rhymes And Songs'

Fred Rescues the Neighborhood Squirrels

Fred finally has a new video.
It's crazy, usually he has like almost million views within a day. He only has 227 as of this second. That's kinda sad, but he hasn't posted one in months. I guess that's what you get.
It was pretty funny though. I like the "squirrels"

Supernatural: Mind Control

Sam is immune to Andy's mind control powers because Sam is also a 'special' child. Dean, haha, is not.
He totally blows their cover.
I love this scene.

Haha, Dean always gets beat up by girls!

heehee!

The Impala!

This is Dean and his BELOVED Impala (1967 Chevy Impala, the Purring Impala as I like to call it)
Song is Back In Black by ACDC

Dean Sings!

We all love when Dean Winchester sings.
This is from season two the episode 'Simon Said'
Which I am watching as I type this up.

Poem #17 Lullaby, Oh, Lullaby!

Lullaby, Oh, Lullaby!

Lullaby, oh, lullaby!
Flowers are closed and lanbs are sleeping;
Lullaby, oh, lullaby!
Stars are up, the moon is peeping;
Lullaby, oh, lullaby!
While the birds are silence keeping,
Lullaby, oh, lullaby!
Sleep, my baby, fall a-sleeping,
Lullaby, oh, lullaby!

Christina G. Rossetti

'Lullaby, Oh, Lullaby!' by Christina G. Rossetti from page 250 'Best Loved Nursery Rhymes And Songs'

I Was Writing Today!

I was actually writing today!
Yea, I know, it's been quite a while.
I just wrote down the word 'Discover' and stared at it for a really long time trying to think of what would come next. Then...It all just came together.
I guess, even though it sounds super corny, writing is like a sort of magic: it just happens and is wonderful and amazing. I don't understand how some people don't like writing. But, then some people don't understand how I don't like to drink pop. We're all different I suppose, but sometimes you just want someone who understands where you're coming from.
Anyways, I wrote two poems today, the one I like better is first. I named it 'Discovering Truth'

Discovering Truth

Discover
Meaningless truths
About the lies
That suffocate
We are not
Honest always
Truth can hide
Within a lie
Don't we wonder
About ourselves
Why this way
And not the other
Don't want to see
The truth within
Lies cascading
Through my skin
Hair let down
Soul exposed
Close your eyes
You don't want to know
Essence examined
Then let go
I'm shivering
Drenched in shame
Guilt besiege me
Apology
Given heartfelt
Lord, I want
To be new
To know You
You the Truth


That's the first one. Let me tell you, it is better than the other one. The other one is called 'Loved' which I titled quickly, it isn't quite the title I want but I can't think of the word or words I want to use. Anyways, here it is.

Loved
All I am is broken
Who could love this mess?
I'm burden-filled, messed up
Thought wrong too long
Drowned in mistakes
Turned to Misery
I was friends with a Demon
I wanted death and destruction
And I regret it all.
No pride is left for that past
I wish it were erased.
You've forgiven me
Me, the undeserving mess,
The broken one with clipped wings.
You made me new!
With new wings I soar
With peaceful heart I rest
Mind at ease
Lord Almighty renewed me through
Loves me eternally
I never could have thought
But I know in my soul
Someone loves me far more than I
Can ever now know

That's both of them. I like 'Discovering Truth' so much better than 'Loved' but I thought why not post them both.
I am going shopping today! Actually, not really shopping, we're just going to pick up some rat food because my rats have no food left for today at all!
Basically I'm killing time before my brother gets here and we leave. I should do my homework now...I really don't feel like doing it yet though. I will when we get back.
Speaking of homework, I have a killer essay for my English class!
It's all about Bloody Mary! I already told you about the assignment, but whoa, I am in such an 'I-wanna-watch-Supernatural' mood!
I put so much time into that essay I think I'll post it here sometime. Soon, if I remember to send it to myself from school.
I'm going to sign off now, see you!
Love you!
God bless!
~Tara

Poem #16 Night

Night

The snow is white, the wind is cold--
The king has sent for my three-year-old.
Bring the pony and shoe him fast
With silver shoes that were made to last.
Bring the saddle trimmed with gold;
Put foot in stirrup, my three-year-old;
Jump in the saddle, away, away!
And hurry back by the break of day;
By break of day, through dale and down,
And bring me the news from Slumbertown.

Mary F. Butts

'Night' by Mary F. Butts pg 249 from 'Best Loved Nursery Rhymes And Songs'

Poem #15 Johnny Crow's Garden

Johnny Crow's Garden

Johnny Crow
Would dig and sow
Till he made a little Garden.

And the Lion
Had a green and yellow Tie on
In Johnny Crow's Garden!

And the Rat
Wore a Feather in his Hat

But the Bear
Had nothing to wear
In Johnny Crow's Garden.

So the Ape
Took his Measure with a Tape
In Johnny Crow's Garden.

Then the Crane
Was caught in the Rain
In Johnny Crow's Garden.

And the Beaver
Was afraid he had a Fever

But the Goat
Said:
"It's nothing but his Throat!"
In Johnny Crow's Garden.

And the Pig
Danced a Jig
In Johnny Crow's Garden.

Then the Stork
Gave a Philosophic Talk
Till the Hippopotami
Said: "Ask no further 'What am I?' "

While the Elephant
Said something quite irrelevant
In Johnny Crow's Garden.

And the Goose--
Well,
The Goose was a Goose
In Johnny Crow's Garden.

And the Mouse
Built himself a little House
Where the Cat
Sat down beside the Mat
In Johnny Crow's Garden.

And the Whale
Told a very long Tale
In Johnny Crow's Garden.

And the Owl
Was a funny old Fowl

And the Fox
Put them all in the Stocks
In Johnny Crow's Garden.

But Johnny Crow
He let them go

And they all sat down
to their dinner in a row
In Johnny Crow's Garden.

'Johnny Crow's Garden' pg 99-114 from 'Best Loved Nursery Rhymes And Songs'

Poem #14 Lullaby

Lullaby

Golden slumbers kiss your eyes,
Smiles awake you when you rise.
Sleep, pretty wantons, do not cry,
And I will sing a lullaby.
Rock them, rock them, lullaby.

Care is heavy, therefore sleep you,
You are care, and care must keep you.
Sleep, pretty wantons, do not cry,
And I will sing a lullaby.
Rock them, rock them, lullaby.

by: Thomas Dekker

'Lullaby' by Thomas Dekker pg 247 from 'Best Loved Nursery Rhymes And Songs'

Poem #13 If A Pig Wore A Wig

If A Pig Wore A Wig

If a pig wore a wig,
What could we say?
Treat him as a gentleman,
And say "Good day."

If his tail chanced to fail,
What could we do?--
Send him to the tailoress
To get one new.

'If A Pig Wore A Wig' pg 227 from Best Loved Nursery Rhymes And Songs

Supernatural - Dean's Funny Faces

Cassie was right, this is hilarious, I love the music with it too!
Thanks Cassie!
Enjoy everybody!
It's just a bunch of Dean's hilarious faces!

♥Valentine's Day!♥

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Happy Valentine's Day!

♥

Everyone having a good Valentine's Day?

I hope so, but I know lots of hearts are broken today or more so on Valentine's Eve. I hope you recover if that has happened, it can be really hard.

Wow my day..*self conscious laugh*...pretty uneventful.

I did just see 'Confessions Of A Shopaholic' like two hours ago with my cousin Ashley. It was way better than I thought it would be! I laughed a lot, we both had a good time.

Ironically, well, okay, it's not really ironic but I like that word: I have been thinking about Bloody Mary almost all day. Not the drink, I mean the legend. For English we had to pick something Science Fiction and I chose Bloody Mary under the headings 'Science Fiction--Horror'. Yea, I got pictures printed off for it and I just finished cutting them all out. I am, of course, coupling the legend with the TV show Supernatural's 4th episode ever, Bloody Mary. Yes, I can do that, because our teacher wants us to use a movie or book that has our topic in it.

Did that all make sense?

Whatever. It's just strange to be thinking about Bloody Mary on Valentine's Day.

Ummmmmmmmmmmmmmm :-) ♥

I'm not going to throw a bunch of 'love' stuff at you.

So you can take the face mask off and put down the baseball bat.

I just want to try and calm you down.

Look, I know that it's Valentine's Day. I know everyone is supposed to, in our twisted and terribly corrupt society, have a boyfriend or girlfriend. Who says you can't be independent? But again, that is what you probably hear all the time, along with: it's his/her loss.

I want to say this: I am single. And I am happy and comfortable where I am. Some people don't like being single, I say fine: as long as you aren't hurting yourself or anyone else, find someone for the right reasons. Now me, yes, some days I want a guy around. But most of the time I'm content being by myself. Really, I think if I had a guy I'd end of driving him away. I like my space and time to do nothing but be alone. I like being alone, I've always liked being alone. Some people, a lot of people, don't like to be alone. If you don't like being alone, don't be alone. I don't know if I'm ready to give up my time and my interests, or at least to adopt someone else's. I guess that makes me selfish, but at least I realize it. Too many people are dating too young.

I totally forgot what I was going to say. I am super tired.

Maybe I'll think of it later tonight when I'm trying to fall asleep and annoyingly can't, or maybe it's gone forever, to skip down the yellow brick road to the land of all lost thoughts.

^*Don't know where I was really going with that*^

Hey! ♥L♥O♥V♥E♥!♥

I love you guys, everyone who reads this blog, I really appreciate it!

God bless you, He loves you forever and no one can ever beat that!

~TARA♥

Poem #12 Where Are You Going My Pretty Maid?

Where Are You Going My Pretty Maid?

"Where are you going, my pretty maid?"
"I'm going a-milking, sir," she said.
"May I go with you, my pretty maid?"
"You're kindly welcome, sir," she said.
"What is your father, my pretty maid?"
"My father's a farmer, sir," she said.

"Say, will you marry me, my pretty maid?"
"Yes, if you please, kind sir," she said.
"What is your fortune, my pretty maid?"
"My face is my fortune, sir," she said.
"Then I can't marry you, my pretty maid!"
"Nobody asked you, sir," said she.

'Where Are You Going My Pretty Maid?' pg 218-219 from 'Best Loved Nursery Rhymes And Songs'

Poem #11 Mistress Mary Quite Contrary

Mistress Mary Quite Contrary

Mistress Mary,
quite contrary,
How does your
garden grow?
With cockle-shells,
and silver bells,
And pretty maids
all in a row.

'Mistress Mary Quite Contrary' pg 33 from 'Best Loved Nursery Rhymes And Songs'

Wow

I have had a huge change of emotional status since yesterday.
This is just crazy.
Yesterday night I was feeling like...well, just like I used to feel. And I mean the terrible way I used to feel. Last night I wanted to die. And I had that horrible time where I desperately wanted to cry, because crying tires you out and lets you sleep easier and because crying gets out a lot of emotion, but I could not. Which only made me more upset but still did not allow me to cry. Anyways, that was yesterday.
Today I was just happy and feeling good all day. I don't understand the change, I think it must be the pills still trying to regulate themselves or something. This week has been really strange.

Today was, hehe, Friday the 13th! Yay! I always like Friday the 13ths.
That has nothing to do with anything.

Today is the last day of school before Valentine's Day! It was, like always, exciting because everyone seems to be in a good mood and hyped up on sugar and handing out candy. Yes, lots of candy. (I have melted chocolate in my pocket because I put a chocolate heart in my pocket and forgot about it until I felt it all mushy :-0) A homeroom, to raise money for 'Pennies For Patients' was sending Crush to your Crush for a dollar. You know what Crush is, right? That orange-pop stuff. They delivered the Crush during homeroom today, and you know what? I was surprised. I was the only one in my homeroom to get Crushed on, and I got two! I don't even know who they're from. They said to Tara and they both said from '?' and one of them said 'Happy Valentines Day'. It was so sweet.
I have a hunch on who one was from, but I otherwise have no idea.

Oh! And I got roses for the first time today! Well, other than that one rose Hannah H gave me that one time. That was so sweet, thanks so much Hannah! But no, the roses were from my mom! Oh, wait, I mean the rose was from my mom. Only one. That was so awesome!!!! I am going to have her take pictures of me and the rose tonight before she goes out with my dad.

Wow, yay!

But I did get some sad news today.
My cousin is really sick and she goes to this super hard school and she missed four days this week and she is so overwhelmed she doesn't even want to go back to school. Can you please take five seconds right now and send a heartfelt prayer for her, please? I really hope that I'm going to get to see her this weekend, it doesn't sound like what she has is contagious. Pray for her, please.

Thanks you guys!
Happy Valentine's Day Eve!
God bless!
~Tara ---being.single.is.sweet.---

Poem #10 Mother, May I Go In To Swim?

Mother, May I Go In To Swim?

Mother, may I go in to swim?
Yes, my darling daughter,
Hang your clothes on yonder tree
But don't go near the water.

'Mother, May I Go In To Swim?' pg 202 from 'Best Loved Nursery Rhymes And Songs'