The Key To Getting A Job

Okay, so apparently the key to getting a job is to give up all hope in getting one, accept the fact that you can't do it by yourself, pray to God, keep in mind that you can not do this alone, get an interview and have your hope revived, don't get over-excited, pray, remember you aren't alone, pwn the interview and get hired on the spot. (Maybe telling the world via blog that you've lost hope helps, too. But I'm not sure about that one.)
Who knew?
I guess I just needed to reorder my life and my priorities, and it was strange how appealing the idea of having a job became to me after I gave up all hope. And so I prayed for the right job. Hopefully this is it, I don't know why it wouldn't be since it worked out so perfectly and the lady is SUPER nice.
It sounds obvious, but relying on God works. It's hard, though. And I don't want to sound self-righteous, because if I wasn't quite so apathetic and hopeless it would've been harder for me. Realizing I don't have it all together and that I can't make anything happen by myself pretty much brought me down a couple levels and invited God in to change my life. :D
Well, I will go in for my first day of training in about an hour, and I am excited and nervous but I think I'll be okay, because God'll stay with me. Always. That's kind of a major part of what He does.
I had to share the news.

Too all those still job searching, I wish you the best and don't be afraid to humble yourself.

Peace out and God bless!
~TARA

i love this picture

The last two are from the same photographer. I don't know about the first.
I love these pictures. Especially the first. They speak without words, which is cliché but true.

Jobs

So, finding a job is hard. But actually getting a job is harder. Who wants to hire a sixteen year old with one previous employer that only half counts because it was volunteerism? Apparently no one. Now there are only two months of summer left. I don't know if I'll be able to keep a job during the school year, school drains so much from me.
I can finally, very remotely, sympathize with the job-searchers. I'm kind of one of them.
Honestly, it is a bit half-hearted, I only am looking because I'm being forced to by my parents, but part of me actually has started to want a job. At first, all I felt was panic at the thought of a job. It may surprise you, but I am not a huge fan of commitment, and a job requires quite a bit of that. And I felt, and still feel, like getting a job will finally, truly, close the door to my childhood. And I didn't want that. I still don't. But childhood left me a long time ago and I've only been clinging to remnants of a psuedo-childhood that I'm not 100% sure was ever really there. It's time for me to let it go, whatever it was, and move on.
Now I kind of look forward to actually getting a job, although I don't have much hope in it. I think it'd be nice to go somewhere that I'm needed, or at least paid to be needed, and do something with my time. I'm not quite sure what I've been doing this summer with all of my 'free time'. I've just been sort of dazed, and that is no way to live. I don't know what happened to the ambition I possessed at the end of the school year for my summer, my goals of learning new things every week and of reading Harry Potter y el cáliz de fuego to learn more Spanish. I've only gotten through a page and a half of it.
I just wanted to share my frustrations with you. Because there aren't enough frustrated people on the Internet as it is. :)

God keep you,
~TARA