Sharing my life with those who either don't have one or who are interested in what I have to say. For your sake I hope it's the latter. Kudos to you either way. ;D

Saturday, June 20, 2009

Hiatus

Don't you just love the word 'hiatus'?
I do. Ever since I first saw it on some one's web page and had no idea what it meant I fell in love with it. It is a beautiful word, and nice to act on.
If you don't know, a hiatus is like a vacation. Going on hiatus means that you'll be away for a while. You get the picture.

Yes, you guessed it, I am going on hiatus. (I just love that word!)

My kitten, Tux, is staying at my friend Darren's house. He and his family will take extra good care of her, I'm sure.
Rachel and her brother are taking care of our house.

We, my mom, dad, and I, are going on vacation. We're going to California. I can't wait, it's so beautiful from the things I've heard and pictures I've seen. At least, we'll try to go to California. I'm not sure if the 'new' used van we just bought can make it. (Luckily my dad's an automechanic so he can pretty much take care of us if it does break down, but still.) Hopefully it can.

I am signed up for a TEC (Teens Encounter Christ) thing.
Heh, yes, me and TEC. I can't say I'm really a fan of 'let's get into our small groups and talk'. I'm not exactly a fan of small groups period. But you don't want to hear about this.

I heard from my brother today! Well, indirectly, but it was still him! He wrote a letter to Rachel and she just got it yesterday and so she brought it by today. It was so sweet. Wow, I love my brother so much he is just great! Now I have his address so I can write to him! Vacation will be weird without him, but hopefully we'll still have a good time. I think we will. I'll have to tell him all about it. :]


I'm not sure when I'll be able to update you again. We're leaving super-early tomorrow morning.

Oh! I just watched 'Son of Rambow' and it was hilarious. I could not stop laughing. I recommend it to pretty much everyone. Yes, it was super corny and cheesy and terrible special effects, but it was awesome! I'm not sure why, but it just was. I will need to get it again when my bro comes home so he can watch it. The added bonus was that everyone had a British accent! Well, except for that French dude who, obviously, had a heavy French accent.

Maybe I'll get a YouTube video with some of my favorite parts or something like that. One part I kept laughing for at least a minute after it was over. It wasn't that funny, but it just struck me and stuck with me. I still laugh when I think about it. :-O

Drop me a message, e-mail ( catlover--7@hotmail.com ), or otherwise.

May God watch over you!
♥TARA

Saturday, June 13, 2009

New Pictures

Snowball
Me, Tux, and Snowball
Me and Tux. Look at those blue braces!



Adam Lambert?!

Did anyone else see Adam Lambert on 20/20 last night?

After I watched him I screamed out the window 'Adam Lambert is gay!'.

I was pretty upset. I'm not exactly sure why.

He is so charismatic and charming and I just like him. Why is someone so gifted and with such a great smile and voice and laugh and he's so funny too, why is he gay?

Yea, that's pretty much it. I was freaking out about it all yesterday. If you ever see me in person, don't get me started on it.

Here's a little article about it: Lambert Says He's Gay In Interview Now that has some new info from what all I heard on 20/20, but basically it has what he says.

Strangely his mom seems OK with him being gay. That was, in my opinion, the most interesting part of the interview. Adam was talking about when his mom finally asked him if he was gay. It was like in a limo or something coming back from an 'American Idol' thing. (This might be misquoted, but it pretty much went like this.)


"My mom looked at me and she was like soooo. Do you have a girlfriend? I said no. Then she asked well, do you want a girlfriend? No, not really. Do you want a boyfriend? Yeah, that would be kind of nice."


Then both him and his mom said they stayed up talking all night. She said that she always knew. He loved to play dress-up and sing and dance and he knew he was different from the other boys in High School.

He said last night, jokingly, that he had always had a fascination with glitter. Then he laughed and said, 'I guess I just stereotyped myself'.

Umm, that is pretty much it. I just needed to share that all with you. :s

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Friday, June 12, 2009

The Dance!

Wow!
The dance was so incredibly awesome!

I don't even know what to call it. I want to say interpretive dance, but I don't think that's right. Although, it was definitely art which can and needs to be interpreted.

All in all, that dance was so so cool!!!
I loved all of the different ones, and especially the one's the students choreographed. The dance called 'A Longing For..." was one of my favorites, part of which is due to the fact that the dancers all wore different bright colors. It was a feast for the eyes.

Ash, if you ever read this, you did so great! I loved it! I don't know that I could ever understand all of the time and stress that has to go into being as awesome at dance as you and your group are, but I'm starting to.

Again, it was so incredible! I encourage everyone that is even slightly artistic to go to a dance like this some time.

(Oh, and I totally loved the 'choking' for the whole Dust Bowl thing. I don't understand how that lady, was she like that one dancer's mother or something?, could feel threatened by it. I was greatly intrigued by the entire Dust Bowl theme-thing.[Yea, I am at a loss for words. It happens to me a lot.])

May God watch over you guys!
~TARA

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Dance Recital

I am going to my cousin's dance recital tonight!

I'm excited, and I can't wait to see her again. Plus I don't think I've ever been to a dance recital before!

Yay, and Rachel's coming too!

May God watch over you!
♥TARA

Dreams

I found out recently that not many people can control their dreams.

Okay, well I can almost always control them. I've said that before when I was talking about taking Depression meds and how having dreams that I couldn't control was totally freaking me out.

Well, the dreams I've been having recently are really weird. I mean out-of-the-ordinary weird. This may sound weird, but I like those dreams in which I'm being chased or I'm scared. Because if it gets too scary I can just stop it or make myself be in a nice meadow and safe or something. I may even love those types of dreams. I don't know for sure.

But the dreams I've been having lately, since around the last week of school, I don't like these dreams much at all.

In all of them there is something with my friend Emily, although last night it was with Hannah L. It's nothing perverted! Nothing like that at all. But in all of the dreams with Emily she was being really mean to me. Treating me worse that dirt, you know what I mean? Emily is one of my best friends, so where is this subconscious coming from? The dream last night Hannah was working overtime, she had at least five jobs and it was like my mom thought Hannah was better than me. She kept saying how good Hannah is and how great she is. And I couldn't get away from my mom, even when I made a park and tried running from her. I couldn't make her disappear.

Now, I love Hannah and Emily. But, I don't know. It's like I resent them too. But how's that? I hate having dreams like this.

Do you know the song 'Mad World'?
Well, that's me. 'The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had'. That is totally me, because those are the best dreams I've had in years. I want people trying to kill me in my dreams instead of mean friends I can't do anything about.

If I could attack them, and I mean no disrespect Em and Hannah, then those dreams would be okay. More bearable. But instead I can't do anything.

More later.

~TARA

Joram's Gone :'(

My brother has now left for Boot Camp. We took him up to the cities yesterday so that he could get all checked in and at this very moment he may be on a plane to Missouri.

He's going to Fort Lennardwood to get his Basic Training done. He was already doing Drills on the weekends. He still has one year of High School left, and after that he'll be gone.

As I've said before, it makes me so sad that he's gone and that he's growing up and becoming a man and all of this stuff when I just want to have my brother who's preoccupied with making forts and being a 'worker-man'.
Now he really is a worker-man though I guess.

I am going to miss him a lot this summer. He's at Fort Lennardwood for ten weeks. Ten weeks! That's a long time, but I know that he'll do really well there.

At least the whole family and I are going down for his graduation. That'll be so nice. And maybe while we're in Missouri I'll be able to visit my friend Hannah.

I need to keep praying for him.
May God watch over you
~Tara

My kitten, Tux ^--^ : )

The new kitten I got just a few days ago is named Tux. The name just stuck, since it looks like it's wearing a tuxedo. Yep, Tux is totally adorable.

I got Tux from Darren, the boy I went to Valley Fair with.

Since Tux no longer has other kittens to play with, I've been doing my best to keep him happy. It's working. Oh, plus, he is really smart! He was litter-box trained in only one day! That is pretty good.

The only problem with him is that he doesn't like bedtime. I've been trying to get him to sleep in the dining room, which is right next to my parents' room and across the house from my room. He hates going to bed. Him not wanting to be alone is the major problem.

So far every night my mom has come into my room with him around 1:00 A.M. He meows when he's alone. But once he's with me and I've calmed him down he usually goes right to sleep. Last night he sort of slept on my shoulder right next to me. It's nice to fall asleep listening to the purr of a content kitten.

I love him! (Oh, but I'm not sure if it's a 'him' or a 'her' yet. I'm just calling Tux him until I know for sure. It's hard to tell when they're so young.)

God bless you guys!
♥TARA

BRACES

I have braces!
I got them Monday, the 8th.
They don't hurt too much, the spacers were way worse!
However, it does sort of hurt to eat, but I'll get used to that pretty quickly. I hope.

They're blue. Well, this month they are. If you don't know, they (the orthodontist) change the color every month when I need to go in and they check up on how the straightening is going.

I hate flossing! It's hard, and right now it takes me FOREVER (or so it seems) to get through flossing them all. I want to keep them clean and not have my gums swell up. They showed me a picture of what can happen if you don't floss, and the gums swell up like over the braces and teeth and really hurt and look bad. A picture really is worth a thousand words.

~TARA

♥RIP Midnight II♥

Doesn't the title say it all?
Midnight II died a few days ago.

As a matter of fact, I found his body just as I brought home a kitten from Darren's house so that Midnight wouldn't be so lonely.

Ironic, isn't it? Now my new kitten, Tux, is all alone. But don't worry, I am sticking by Tux as best I can. Now she's sleeping on my lap as I write this.

The world's a funny and strange place.

Midnight II had something wrong with him, something internal, and that was the end of him. He was sick when we got him, apparently. I didn't notice. I was blinded by love and out of practice. I hadn't been around kittens much at all for years, I didn't remember how playful and active and curious they were supposed to be. How could I have not expected this death, not prepared myself for it as I have with all of my previous pets that have been sick? Somehow I've twisted this all so that I can blame myself, though I know it isn't my fault.

I'll miss him. The short time we shared was special.

Much ♥love♥ Midnight.
~TARA

Friday, June 5, 2009

Snowball and Midnight

I got two new cats today!
A little boy kitten named Midnight and a grown-up male cat named Snowball.

I love them!
Snowball is already adjusted to his new home. He gets alone well with Moto and tolerates September. Also, he is just OVERWHELMING! In a good way! When I start to pet him he goes like crazy, he loves it! He has a cold, but I think he'll get over it pretty soon. He's mostly a white-cream color, with a really light brown on his tail and paws. He sort of looks Siamese!

Midnight is just a tiny tiny kitten! Right now he's sleeping on my stomach! We had a rocky start, but he likes me now. Moto likes him, but he is scared silly of Mo! Also, September seems to think Midnight is like a mouse of something, because she tried to attack him! Of course, that made Moto run over to break it up which scared poor 'Night half-to-death. He's calmed down, that was like 2 hours ago.

Oreo does not approve of either Midnight or Snowball, but she better get used to them. I think that she'll warm up to them in a little while. A few days, I hope.

I think that I'm going to have both of them sleep in the house tonight, but tomorrow night I'll let Snowball sleep outside. He's so comfortable here!

It's strange for me to have another cat named Midnight when Midnight, my baby Middy, has been missing for months now. I miss her. But this Midnight is absolutely awesome, and I love him! I need to get used to calling him 'Night instead of Middy, since Middy belongs to my lost girl Midnight. If that totally confused you, I understand.

I will talk to you people later!
I love kittens!
May God watch over you!
♥Tara : )

ValleyFair

Traditionally at our Jr. High School on the last day of school the 'good' kids(those who are not failing and have not gotten a detention) get to spend the whole day at Valley Fair!

For those of you who don't know, Valley Fair is one of the greatest amusement parks in Minnesota. I love going, although this year I didn't really want to.

However, a very sweet boy whom I like very much asked if I was going because he was. For him, I went. I spent the day with him and my other friends.

I felt bad that he was the only boy in our group, but he said that he didn't mind. Plus, he would go on all the rides! All of my girl friends are wimps it seems like. They won't go on roller coasters or the Tilt-A-Whirl or Power Tower--a ride that either shoots you up into the air or shoots you down towards the ground.

This is the list of rides I went on:
Renegade,
The Wave,
Thunder Canyon,
Excalibur,
The Wave again.

Really, not too many rides, though I might have forgotten some. Sadly, I didn't not go on Tilt-A-Whirl or Wild Thing, but that's okay.
It was my favorite Vally Fair-School experience ever!

I had so much fun!
Ooh, and guess what--I only have a little sunburn on my nose and cheeks, so not too bad!

That was the best last day of school so far!

May God watch over you and you have a great summer!

TARA

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

All right people, I have a quick note for you:
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ONLY 3 DAYS OF SCHOOL LEFT!!
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I can hardly wait for summer!

Oh, and you want to know what I am really psyched for?
I will be getting kittens!

One from a friend of my dad's and one from my friend Emily!
I am soooo excited!
I love kittens so much!
I will update you all again soon, I hope!

Happy Summer!
God bless!

~TARA