Sharing my life with those who either don't have one or who are interested in what I have to say. For your sake I hope it's the latter. Kudos to you either way. ;D

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Nothin' New 2 Say

I have nothing to really say.
I will be going to an art thing tomorrow, Friday, and Saturday with Lidia, one of my best friends. I get out of school at noon both tomorrow and Friday for it, so that's pretty sweet.


Oh, My Immortal just started playing in randomized Windows Media Player. I absolutely love this song. It's by Evanescense, and Amy Lee's voice is just so beautiful. It took me until just a few days ago to realize that the song is a person who is still grieving for someone who's gone, probably dead, and is still haunting her. And I love the song.


'I'm so tired of being

suppressed by all my childish fears
and if you have to leave I wish that you would just leave
'cause your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone
these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

when you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
when you screamed I'd fight away all of your fears
and I held your hand through all of these years,
but you still have all of me

you used to captivate me
by your resonating life
now I'm bound by
the life you left behind
your face it holds my
once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away
all the sanity in me

these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase
when you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
when you screamed I'd fight away all of your fears
and I held your hand through all of these years
and you still have all of me

I tried so hard
to tell myself that you're gone
but though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase
when you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
when you screamed I'd fight away all of your fears
and I held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me
me
me'

So, that's My Immortal. Beautiful song. I love it.

I'll try to think of some more interesting things to do with this blog, any ideas are more than welcome!

God watch over you this week!
♥ Tara

Thursday, April 23, 2009

@ School

I have time to kill.
Well, not really.
I was trying to help Cassie put a video in her slide show, but it isn't working, so now Milan is helping her. YAY MILAN! : )

I haven't updated in a long time...whoa, I say that a lot.
soooo
My brother is definitely going to Boot Camp this summer. :'(
He wants to join the National Guard. It makes me sad. I am going to miss him so much. It's not so much him going to Boot Camp that makes me sad, or that I'm going to miss him a lot, it's that he's growing up.

Joram is my older brother. If he grows up, that means I need to grow up soon, too. I just made that totally selfish. But do you understand this feeling I'm getting that I can't put in words? He's growing up. He'll be moving out soon. He could get married and have kids! That's a good thing, but still. I just want everything to stay like it was when we were little kids. Playing in the mud and making forts together. We haven't even done that in years, but I miss it. And now, him going to Boot Camp, that's sort of, to me, like the seal that we will never be little kids again. The National Guard. Boys aren't in the National Guard, men are. He's only 17. And I love him and want him to stay my older brother who would do slapstick comedy for me whenever I cried. The brother who I would spend hours playing with every day. The brother who was with me when we moved and made everything easier. The brother with whom I would go outside and made tons of forts and play cowboys and Indians with. I'm not ready to say goodbye to him and greet this new brother, this man, who is grown up and responsible and has a job and is going to Boot Camp this summer.

I should probably go now.
Heather is reading this over my shoulder. She says 'hi people!'.
I'll talk to you people later.
God bless!
♥~Tara~♥

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Firenze♥RIP♥

Well, yeah.
Maybe you can guess.
Firenze died last night.
She was slowing down for a long time, I knew it was coming, but it was still sad. I wasn't in the room when she died. I had her out of her cage and with me for over an hour because I knew she would be gone soon. Since it was my brother's birthday we were doing what he wanted, and he wanted to watch Ironman. I hadn't seen it, and I only watched like half since it was late, but that is a very good movie. I put Firenze in her cage so that I could take a shower. Then I changed my mind, I knew she would die within an hour. So I gave her to my mom to keep an eye on while I was in the shower. Then Firenze passed.
She will be buried in an oatmeal box today.
I don't even know if she liked oatmeal.

I'm not torn up about it too much, I knew it was coming.

The night before she died I held her for a long time before bed and I read her Psalm 19. I'd never read Psalm 19 before, but I really liked it and it seemed to allow her to relax a little more. I told her how God made her and God loves her and will take care of her.
I hope she's happy now. I don't know what happens to animals when they die. Maybe some day I will.

I still will miss her though. I'll really need to try bonding with Venice more.

May God watch over you this week.
♥Tara

Monday, April 13, 2009

Monday

Easter was great, wasn't it?
I know I enjoyed it, it's always nice to see the family, though I didn't really talk or socialize with anyone. Strange, looking back on it.

Well, today was definitely a Monday.
Complete with forgetting needed supplies and never quite getting into a 'work mode'. Yea, I hate the Monday after a week off of school.

It was worse for my mom. She had an absolutely horrendous day, as it sounds. Hehe, she's still not in a great mood. Probably won't be in a good mood the rest of the day. Days like this, it's best to try and avoid her or at least be as pleasant towards her as possible. This whole week is going to be horrible for her.

I have a standardized writing test or something like that tomorrow morning, I have to pass that to move on to 10th grade and in order to graduate from high school. Fun. But, I don't know, I'm not too worried about it. I should do fine, and I just hope I get a good subject to write on.

By the way, that new Sprint commercial with all of the statistics, I really like that one. Although, I liked it a lot more before I saw it like 100 times.

I will talk to y'all later, hopefully with something a little more interesting to say.

God watch over you this week,
With love and hoping for comments,
~Tara ♥

Saturday, April 11, 2009

Happy Easter!

Happy Easter!
I hope you and your family and whoever else you celebrate
with have a great Easter!
Christ Has Risen!
Rejoice!

♥Gracie♥

Yesterday, I had the great honor to hold a baby.
: )
Her name is Grace Marie, and I kept calling her Gracie.
She is the youngest of my mom's friend Tanya's children.
She is about four months old, and she is so precious!

Now, this may come as a shock since I am a 15 year old girl, but I have never really held a baby. I mean, sure, I held my cousin Eric when he was still a tiny baby. I was too scared to hold his older brother, Nicholas, when he was a baby.
Then there was Brijette, little Bri, also a cousin (well, second cousin once removed), who I did hold more than any other baby previously. But, I feel like that doesn't count since she was much older when I held her and I didn't feel comfortable holding her for long. I don't think she felt comfortable having me hold her for long, either. She liked to move though, and was always trying to walk.

I'm getting sidetracked.

Grace, well, I held her for quite a while Friday. I mean, it might have been an hour, but I'm not sure. She's so little! And I felt very comfortable holding her, maybe because she isn't a fussy baby and has six older siblings. I felt so good holding her, it was like baby therapy for me, because I was having a down day. She made me feel so good, I cannot express it in words. It was sort of like holding joy in my arms, and having joy grab and hold my fingers. Every time she wrapped her little fist around one of my fingers I had such a moment of joy. I absolutely love that! And hearing her suck her thumb when she was against my shoulder, I hope I never forget it.

Gracie has the most precious blue eyes. And I shall never cease to be amazed by baby hands and feet. I love her, and it's just incredible how babies are.

I was holding her, rocking slightly back and forth and re-situating her when she started to fuss, and I asked God to bless her and all babies. And I thanked Him for babies. They are incredible, and God makes each one perfect in His eyes.

I just wanted to gush to you for a little while and write all that down about Grace. I don't ever want to forget it, and having it written will help me to remember.

God bless you!

Tara

Thursday, April 9, 2009

Jensen Ackles Picture!!

I can't believe that I didn't tell you people (or whatever you are....just kidding...I think) that I finally got my picture from Jensen Ackles!
It's a great picture, of course, and I am so excited about it!
It doesn't matter where you are in the room, his eyes follow you! I know, I thought it would be creepy too, but now I found out that it isn't. So, that is pretty sweet.
So, yea, Jensen Ackles is in my room, on the wall, above my bookcase.
It is SWEET.
It was definitely worth the six-week wait.
And, I feel like the people who send out his pictures get totally ripped off. Know why? I got his picture for free and they had to pay to make the picture and for postage and they have to write the address and stuff by hand. They might loose money. But, I kind of doubt it. Keeping fans happy is a good thing. Hey, thinking of Supernatural, it's on tonight. Oh, but wait. On supernatural.tv they say that the next 'new' episode is on the 23rd.
hmmmm
That would mean that tonight is a rerun.
Crazy Supernatural people.
What's with all of the hiatuses?
Well, the new episode is called 'Jump the Shark'.
I'll say it again: this season hasn't been great except I loved 'Wishful Thinking' and 'Yellow Fever'.
Now here I am, rambling about SN.
There was something else I wanted to say...
Oh, right.
I have an ortho appointment today. Yay.
It was supposed to be yesterday, but their x-ray machine wasn't working. I hope that they have it fixed. I am going to under-go about 45 minutes of teeth x-rays and picture taking and all sorts of stuff like that. I don't like it.
But, hey, I guess I don't mind it that much either.

On a whole different note, I am getting together a good compilation of music to add to my collection! I'll just need my parents' credit card to make the purchases.
And no, I am not stealing the credit card from my parents. I am being allowed music as a gift for being on the Honor roll every quarter so far this year at school. I don't like school very much, but I love music, so I think that it's a good trade-off.

I will talk to you peeps again later, if I survive the orthodontist appointment. That was a joke, I hope I didn't just jinx myself. Wait, do jinxes even work? I don't think so. They only work if you think they will, you know, like a self-fulfilling prophecy. Wow, I get off-track really easily.

May God watch over you!
♥Tara

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Blacking Out / GF

This is awesome!
I LOVE this video, hehe, I watch it and laugh.
LAUGH!
awesome randomness.
Did I mention that I like these guys?

Major / Dead Cat

All right, this one and the other one of them just talking...most people won't find them terribly hilarious...but I do.
Like I said, I really like them and I've watched all of his videos.

Adventures With Kyle III

Mitchell's Adventures With Kyle part 3!
Pretty funny, I like them.

Spring Break

This week is Spring Break!
Me and Emily are going to get together and it is going to be so much fun!
The snow is melting, again and finally, and the weather is starting to warm up.
Maybe I'll be able to take some good pictures soon.
Earlier I did have a picture day, I took pictures of all sorts of stuff outside, and a lot of pics with my cats.
Well, I need to figure out how to put the videos on my camera onto the computer and then on Facebook and on here for my friends' and my own enjoyment.
: )
I will talk to you people later!
Hey, please leave some sort of comment, it'd be cool.
God bless you!
♥Tara

While I Was Gone

Because of Drivers Ed I wasn't on my computer much at all for over a week. Yes, that is hard on me, but it wasn't really a bad thing. It was more of a break.

I really just checked my email a few days ago, but I haven't opened most of them yet. I will.

Hmmm.

Well, my friend, Hannah, visited from Missouri!
She was on Spring Break and her whole family came up to visit relatives and friends and stuff. It was so great to see her again! I miss her. Well, I guess it's sort of hard to stop missing some one who's gone and you really love. She is definitely one of my closest and best friends. YAY! I'm so so blessed to have her and Emily.

Today I went to an orthodontist appointment consultation thing. Looks like I'll probably be getting some sort of braces, but nothings known for sure yet about it. Tomorrow I have another appointment with some sort of ortho person to take pictures and x-rays and stuff like that with my teeth. Fun. I am so glad that I don't have their job.

Ummm, what else to say?

Mitchell Davis posted three new videos, and I will be posting all of them on here.

Fred also had a new video about April Fool's Day. It wasn't very good, but it's Fred, and he's classic.

I am excited, I will get to go on a music shopping spree today or tomorrow. Yes! Finally new music, I want to get a few special songs and check out a few bands.
It should be fun.


~Tara

Drivers Ed Is Over!

Alrighty, it has been a very long time since I last blogged. Like, two or three weeks? Waaaay toooooo looonnnng.
So, I'm just going to update you with a couple posts, hopefully they won't be too long for your span of interest.

Okay, so Drivers Education is the main reason that I haven't updated in a while. But, that was only like two weeks long, so it isn't my only excuse.
Drivers Ed is over now, thankfully!
It was three hours every night from 3:30-6:30. It started Wednesday-Friday, Monday-Friday, and then Monday and Tuesday. It was SO BORING.

The guy who teaches it, Mr. Woods, is super nice. Which made me feel bad every time I nearly dozed off while he was talking. He really liked drawing different scenarios at four-way stops on a little white board he had, and then showing what to do if this happens, or if this is here, or this etc., etc. And all of the movies we watched? Wow, that is something: what people have made. Some of them were okay, some were boring, some were stupid, a few were funny, and the last one was like a snooze-fest. We watched it on the last day and I kept nearly falling asleep. My eyes would start to close and my head would start to nod and then I'd snap back awake only to have it start all over again.

No, I haven't taken my permit test yet. I don't know when I will, I want my permit and I don't want it.

I have one funny thing to say about Drivers Training, and you better laugh because I thought it was hilarious and frustrating at the same time. Basically, don't get me started about it. But, to share, this is what happened.

Mr. Woods was talking about stop and yield signs. It's pretty obvious what to do at a stop sign: you stop. Basically, it's pretty self-explanatory. At a yield sign you: yield to traffic with the right-of-way. Yes, I get it, it's sort of common sense. He finished talking about stop and yield signs and said, 'That's stop and yield signs in a nutshell.' Yay, we learned about stop and yield signs. Do you want to know how long the 'nutshell' was? 1 hour! That doesn't sound long, but it really was! 1 hour of stopping and yielding! That was all he talked about! It was so boring! I almost laughed out loud when he said it was in a nutshell. A nutshell is less than 5 minutes! That was an hour! And now I could rant about it for a long and redundant time. But I won't. (all of you are saying 'thank you!' right now, lol)

So, yeppy, Drivers Ed is over and you should be as happy as I am. : )

God bless!
Drive safe!
♥ ~Tara